I am keeping cold water near me at all times, which is hard at work as the water doesn't stay cold without ice so I have to only fill my bottle about a quarter full so I can go get fresh from the cold water fountain all the time. Plus, drinking all this water means I have to go to the toilet about once or sometimes twice an hour. It just isn't going well at the moment.
I thought it had mostly gone away but it came back yesterday and is now just a constant pain which gets to the agony stage if I do not put something cold on it as soon as it starts to hurt.
Now you might say why don't I go to the dentist or the doctor. That presents more problems. I can go to the doctor, who will then recommend I go to the dentist but the dentist is not free, or part of the health coverage. It costs $300 to go to the dentist the first time because they have to do all kinds of things to set you up as a new patient. X-rays, cleanings, mapping. You can't just go to the dentist and say I have a tooth ache. They want to establish your current condition before they will start treating you for anything.
So basically, I have to take off work to go to the doctor who will give me a letter to go to the dentist where I will have to take another day off to see the dentist and then have to pay both of them to basically give me pain killers. Maybe they will find what it is but then I will have to start treatment and more visits and this is running into a lot of time not working and paying for a lot of things that may or may not help. And I move away in about a month and an half and I will not have a job. So I cannot afford to pay for all this when I should be saving money for when I don't have a job. So, I have a toothache.
Last night, I had another one of my attacks. Not sure how much detail I need to go into or will go into but basically, one of those times when I thought I might die.
Yea, I know, way too dramatic. But that is what it feels like and there is always the possibility that it will happen. I will go into a few details about what I am talking about. Basically, I wake up not being able to breath. I cannot suck air into my lungs. I can draw a bit of air but I think it mostly goes into my belly. It is very hard to describe. I try to breath in but can't. No air comes in. It feels like my throat is closed.
I wrote all the previous about a week ago. I was at work, still am, and I just go tired of writing it. It was not very interesting and I have thought of deleting it but as you can see, I left it in, just didn't finish my thoughts. So, read it as is, basically, I am old and falling apart and don't have much hope but I will trudge through it all. Still have the tooth ache. Some day I will tell the story of the not breathing part. I might have already done it in the past but these things are hard to read so I don't go back and find out.
The original reason for starting it last time was that I had Maeghan news. As you know, we went to the Huon Show a couple of weeks ago or whenever it was that we went. What you don't know, and I didn't really know about it until the day before, but Maeghan entered the photography contest. She submitted a few of her pictures, four I think, into the different categories of photos. I think there was flowers, scenery, black and white and portraits or something like that. I don't really know but I do know she has been taking pictures with her phone lately and she takes a lot of them. It might be that her best friends dad is a professional photographer but I don't know if she does it for school or just for fun.
I don't really know how many people actually submit photos to this contest. I know her friends father did and so did her friend, but I have no idea how many entries there were. I guess it doesn't really matter if you beat them all.
That's what Maeghan did. She got first place. She got first place in scenery or whatever the category was called, and she got highly recommended if black and white. Don't know what highly recommended is but she got a ribbon and a certificate for it. But she git first prize for a picture of some mountains she took in New Zealand. First prize. Doesn't matter if there were one or a hundred other entries, she beat them all with her photo. I might include it here if I can find it. All I have is a picture of it hanging on the wall and not the original so it doesn't really look that good.
It was a real surprise to all of us. We didn't think there was anything to it, she just wanted to enter her photos and see what happens. The first thing we did when we got to the fair was go to the exhibit building to have a look at the photos. It's not a big building, very small in fact. I think it is a meeting room or something. As you go in the door, the exhibits were on the right. The first thing we saw was the highly recommended photo she had. It was on the left side of the exhibit near the top. We were just saying she won something and we were getting happy about that. Then we saw, right next to the door, her other photo and a blue ribbon attached to it. She had won first prize, beating all the professional and other photographers that had entered, no matter how many there might have been.
I have been writing this entry for three weeks now. I never seem to finish it in the time I have and I forget what it is I have said or not said. So, what I am going to do it end this here. I have gone back and re-read this but I can't remember where I was headed with anything and I have fresh news so I think I will just skip it and start a new entry. Whether I do that today, which is Friday, or try again on Monday, the most likely thing to happen, its all up to how I feel. Been a very tiring week and I am on my own now, both at work and at home. Yes, they have left for Queensland and I am here until the end of the day covering the phones for some Christmas lunch everyone has gone to.
Before I start typing things again, I am going to close this. I will try to add the photos of Maeghan's awards but I don't know if I have access to them from here. But going into that starts another rant, so if the pictures are there, you already know it and if they are not, look forward to them some other day.
Until next time
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