Going back, I don't think I ever mentioned that Maeghan moved out. Well, sort of. She has moved all her stuff to a different place, but she spends a lot of time with us. Almost all weekends and several times during the week.
She moved in with some girls she does not know, into a share house about 20-30 minutes away. It would be a lot closer, but there is no direct route to it. You have to cross over the freeway and that means driving all the way to the nearest exit then crossing and coming back. A place called Beachmere. And, as the name implies, it is on the beach, or most of it is. She lives about two blocks from the beach.
It is not a big house but has three bedrooms so there are three girls. She recently had to move from one bedroom to another because the roof was leaking in her original bedroom. It was the smallest and the new one is a bit larger. Not much, but a bit.
This is something that needed to happen. Maeghan and William spend way too much time with us. They need to start their own lives and find new friends and people they can go visit. I love having them around and they are welcome to live with me for the rest of their lives, but I will not be here forever and they need to have other people and interests. Their mother basically takes over anything they do and does not let them decide what they want or what they should do, so anything that happens is still over-shadowed by their proximity to us. I hate it for a lot of reasons, but it had to happen. Maeghan needs friends. William needs friends and with the way things are, they only have us.
I really worry about their future. I really worry about it. But let's not dwell on it now.
Maeghan's best friend is now in Melbourne. She is a nurse and has taken a job there. Hard to say best friend since she has not seen her in a few years but they still talk at least once a week on the phone. Maeghan plans on going to visit her in March. Not sure how that is going to work, but she needs to figure it out and make it happen. I don't see how, but it can be done and I am trying to stay out of it and not do it for her. I might have to intervene to make it happen, but for now, she is on her own. There were always plans on them living together at some point, but that was always a dream and not really a reality that was going to happen. I would like it if it would. Not sure how I would handle being that far from her all the time, but it has to happen. I will not be here forever.
Going to have to go. I will leave this open and see if I can get back to it. Probably not, but we can hope.
No one coming in, so I will type.
Neither of the kids have job prospects. I think Maeghan has something that might start in March or April, but I am not sure. Her other job fell through because they wanted her to drive there every day. That was not possible as it was out in the country and there were no buses close by. I am not sure what the new prospect is, but maybe it is something a bit closer.
William had some really bad news. I think I mentioned it. He does not qualify for being a fireman. The restrictions are just too high. Maybe, if he works at it, but I don't see that happening. I am afraid his fall back position is the army. Not that it would be bad, but he would definitely be moving away and I am not sure how often we would see him and I am not sure he could handle that. Maybe that would be the for the best also. It would give him a career and I would not have to worry about it so much.
I am trying to set it up so that we will not depend on the kids in any way as we get older. I am hoping I don't have to die to make them financially viable. Life insurance and supper and all. They would be a lot better off financially. But then they wouldn't have me, so the downside is more than the upside. By all rights, I should be retired. I am not well enough to work anymore, but I took my current job because doing contract work was just holding me in place. It wasn't making anything better. With the steady job, I can make plans and get ready for actual retirement. Our biggest problem is we do not own a house. Without that, expenses go through the roof. I will not be able to buy a house anytime soon, but I can get everything else in place so we have no expenses except rent when I retire. It's a lot of financial stuff.
I should be leaving this entry now. Been getting a sentence in every once and a while but I am afraid it is not making any sense anymore. I'll try to do more later, but not today. I don't feel well again, been over a month, so typing is an issue. I'm just a bundle of joy.
Later
Remember
It will all be ok in the end, and if it's not ok, then it's not the end.
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