I might, and might is the key word, start doing this from my phone, which would mean more entries. I did it with the last entry from Dreamworld and it seemed to work well, so maybe I can do that again sometime. Not sure how or when but if I am sitting at home and don't have access to my computer and don't want to set up the laptop, my phone seems like a good option. Or maybe when we are out and I am sitting waiting for everyone else, I can create an entry. It seems like a good idea but we know how I am. If I say I am going to post more often, it usually means I will stop posting for a while. Always hard to read something if its not there.
On a completely different note and something I have mentioned in the past, I need to start talking more about me. You ask, how can that be since everything I say or do is about me, but it has been suggested that I am running out of time and if I ever want to get it done, I need to do it now. I will go no further in this entry but I am being told to 'bring the thunder'. Cryptic. Of course it is. Probably will never happen but it is a possibility.
Let's see, did I leave anything out of the Dreamworld entry, done live while I was there in case I did not mention it before. Maeghan saw me and asked what I was doing at one point. She guessed I was doing a live blog and to be sure and mention that she had suggested that I tell everyone I was doing a live blog. I had already mentioned it but she wanted her name in here. As I never seem to talk about the kids and mostly just talk about myself, I had to mention it just so she can get a little recognition. Seems she thinks that since her name comes first, it should be more about her. I told her I will do what I can but her name rarely comes up.
One thing I have noticed is the entries lately have had a severe lacking of food. Since this is basically a food blog, I seem to have dropped off talking about food. Must be very boring for those who can't wait for my next morsel of information. I will attempt to remedy that situation also. But I have other stuff to talk about so we will get to it when I can. I did have a bagel with salmon and cream cheese this morning on the way to work and if that sounds good, then I will say, it was a bit disappointing. I have found that they never live up to the expectation I have for them. I think it sounds really good but it always seems to be lacking something. Since I do not make them for myself, I have never sat down to figure out what it is that is missing. Pepper? Salt? Something a bit sweet? I don't know but there seems to be something missing and I cannot quite put my finger on it. Might have even been the bagel as they served it on a poppy seed bagel and I find those to be not worth the poppy seeds they put on them. Plain would be better or maybe something else. Maybe garlic but I am not sure. I just need to sit and think about it sometime. Now that I have had one and been disappointed, I probably will not think about it again until the next time I try it but I think I could figure it out if I tried. I do have that ability to think of different foods and imagine what they would taste like together. It's how I cook. So if I thought about it and tried different things in my mind, I could figure it out. But not now.
I can hear the boss outside my office talking to someone. Probably means he is headed my way and wants me to look into something so I should pretend I am working. Then again sitting typing on my computer might seem like work so I think I can get away with it, unless he has something specific in mind I should go do. If there is a gap in the typing, then you know I had to walk away. But since my thoughts never seem coherent from one paragraph or maybe even on sentence to another, you will probably not notice anything amiss.
Problem is, I need some water and I cannot walk out of the office to get some because that increases the odds of being spotted and put to work. I am too old to work and this job allows me to get paid for doing nothing, if you count typing in this thing as nothing. It actually takes a lot of work and a lot of thought to get these things down on paper. I remember in the past, when I used to write this as letters, that I would take hours to create each one and carefully go over and over it to make sure I had it right or said what I wanted it to say. Since I started doing it in the forum, I am not as careful and just type whatever comes into my mind. Doesn't have to be right or accurate and my only real goal is to be entertaining. I fail miserably, or have been failing for a long time, but I keep trying.
I started that paragraph with the thought of saying the need I have lately to pee all the time. I drink a lot of water, always have, but lately, I have to pee every two hours or so, sometimes even more often. And it is not a little, I pee a lot. Disgusting, but I was driving to one of my other work places the other day and had to pee real bad. I have, once or twice, tried to make it to the next stop and failed, so I knew it was bad enough that I had to go now. There were no convenient places to go outside so I stopped the car, and here is the disgusting part, and pee'd in a bottle. I had to. I thought I was going to pee my pants, which as mentioned, I have done a couple of times. I filled up two 750ml bottles. That's one and a half litres. That is a lot of pee. And it is that way every time, or it seems like it is. I pee a lot and often. Not sure where all the water is coming from. I do drink a lot but nothing like that amount. Maybe I do, but it seems like a lot. Been happening for a few months now. I think I have a disease. Not sure which one, but it must be something. Old age, diabetes, lack of bladder control, it has to be something. Now I have disgusted myself so we will end that talk.
Juanita seems to think I have had a stroke. She says one side of my mouth is drooping. I am not sure I notice it but she took pictures and sent them to someone and they agreed. I think it was Karen. I have recently read a little bit about it and it could be I have had a series of small strokes and that is causing me no end of problems. All the symptoms of a stroke and all the side effects, I seem to have had lately. I will continue to ignore it but if I start talking about things that are of no interest to anyone or seem to be a bit strange, we will put it down to me having a stroke at the time of writing. Maybe even this is all typed in with words that make no sense but seem to make sense while I am typing them. I seem to recall recently talking about bladder problems and me taking the piss out of something so maybe it is true. I am mental. But now I have an official excuse. Or I think it is official. I don't know if I went to the doctor or not. Probably not, so it is semi-official. Not that I will ever say otherwise but treat me like I actually know what I am talking about and we can continue to have fun with it for a long time.
I keep mentioning that I need to tell you about Maeghan's school and William's attempts to find employment. I should probably get to that. I think there was something else I was going to talk about but now that my thoughts have turned to something else, I forget what it was I was going to say.
William, as mentioned in previous entries, is really keen of dropping out of school and finding a job. He has had four weeks off and has to go back next week, I think. No real efforts that I can see, other than me doing it for him, so I don't see much hope of that happening. My issue is, I can probably find him something or get him on someone's list to finding a job but he has to know how I did it and how to do it himself or it doesn't mean anything. He is really keen to do it but lacks the knowledge on how to do it. I need to teach him. I know I never had anyone show me anything but kids are different today and there seems to be a lack of learning on how and why things like this are done. I know I actually fell into every job I have ever had and did not really pursue any one or anything so maybe I am not the best one to do this. I think that is my weekend project. Get him signed into some of the job sites and show him how to look for a job. I see lots of jobs being advertised when we go out but he always has one reason or another that says he cannot apply for those. I will have to show him you have to either push for what you want to do, or apply for everything and take what it offered. You can't half-ass it with either. I would prefer he pursued what he wants but since he does not really know what he wants, that is kind of hard. And he does not see that getting his education, while useless in the job market, it does show the employer that he can commit to something and pass it. I never had a four year degree but I can see the point that if you can show an employer that you can commit to getting one and complete it, you are the type of person that can commit to a job and do what is needed to finish it. Not that I think William will ever do that or that he actually needs to do it but I can tell him it would be helpful to do so. To actually show that he did 12 years of school and did not just drop out when he wanted to just because he did not want to go anymore.
He finally got some emails back from a couple of places I applied to for him. Rejection letters but he was worried I had given them the wrong email address and he was not getting anything back. Most of the jobs wants someone older or someone with a driver's license, but it shows they actually looked at his application so that is a plus. I will show him how to get on to some of the job sites but while I never used them to get an actual job, I have used them to apply for and get responses back from potential employers. I usually get replies back from job recruiters, head hunters as we used to call them, but I do not think that happens with you first job or jobs. I got my foot in the door by applying for and getting a mailroom job that promised promotion to other, bigger, better things. I got my self noticed and went from there. To where I am now, which is working on dumbass problems for people who have no idea what I do or what it is they are doing. They just want me to tell them it is fixed so they can go about their business. I used to be a programmer, and I was good at it. Now, I don't think I could program my out of a paper bag. The mind is just not there anymore. But that is about me and we are talking about William.
William does not want to work in fast food. I can understand that. I never wanted to do that either. I am not sure how it works here, but I fell into doing that because my father was doing it at one point in his life and he asked me to come in and help them with a few things. Long story, but I did that for a couple of nights and then he was promoted to another job at another store. The new person thought I worked there and put me on the schedule, then convinced me to work through the end of the schedule so she could find a replacement. Ended up doing that for the next five years, working my up to manager. Good money but hard work and I got fired and moved to a better fast food place. Made manager and decided I did not want to do that anymore with my life and went to the mailroom job. the rest is history.
I am thinking William could try something like that but I do not recommend it. It's a worst case scenario and I want him to start at something he might be good at or provides him with a path forward to bigger and better things. He agrees, I just don't know how to do that or get into those types of fields. And, I don't think he would actually enjoy doing construction type work but he is the type of person that might be suited to that line of work. Very hard work and not a lot of upside to it that I can see but a lot of people do it their whole lives and they seem happy. If he can be happy doing it, that it is perfect for him as I do not see him suited for a lot of other things. He says he likes working on computers but I don't think he really knows what that means. I would love for him to be involved in that and I will encourage him as much as I can but I think he thinks I can teach him and I am not really up for that anymore. My mind is blank so I cannot be a lot of help. But I can do what I can to make it easier for him. Maybe I should get my old computer out and show him some things. But that is so slow and hard to work with that it might be more of a discouragement than a positive.
Time to start is now. Problem is me. He seems willing. I am at the end of my usefulness. I just want to give up. Can't. He needs me.
Maeghan has started back to school. But I am really tired of typing at this point. I will need to take a break and come back to this, if I do. I might make it another entry for another time. I am tired of typing and thinking and trying to correcting all my spelling and typing mistakes. It's a lot of work. I will leave this open, just in case, but it is already too long and Maeghan has a lot to write about, so it will probably be another entry. Maybe today, maybe never. Guess you will know immediately, but for me, it will be a couple of hours to see if I get back to it. So just in case.
Until next time,
Later
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